I have been busy dealing with a lot lately, with couple of drafts left to finish , but somehow I just can’t do it .
At the start of lockdown I felt “okay think positive , you have got so much time at home , all’s gonna be alright.” Well it was going great for a while but then my grandpa passed away ( he was not infected with corona) . That was just 5 days before my 16 th birthday .
Well he was not well for almost an year ,but still he wasn’t that bad , he was much better than last summer. The thing that crushed us was ,we all were at our homes , no office or school to hinder us but he lived in other state so we couldn’t even attend his last rites, I couldn’t see him for the last time and that regret is gonna follow me ,my whole life .
It was then that I realised that this pandemic was taking much more than lives . It is taking away those important moments from lives of thousands. In fact after grandpa’s death , the caretaker told that he was pretty fine a week or two ago but his condition deteriorated with the commencement of lockdown . It was like those walks he took in the park in evening , the continuous interactions with neighbours , the hustle and bustle of regular life , the normality of daily life had kept my 87 year old grandpa alive . And suddenly when he was deprived of this normality , he felt agiated and left the world.
This post doesn’t mean that lockdown in not positive or bad , in fact I wrote it again as a reminder , showing the pains of this cruel time . It is affecting all , it is torturing feelings and mind without even infecting . The only way to defeat it as soon as possible is to follow the rules as strictly as possible .
Now that I know what chaos has the pandemic plunged the world into , not only death by infection but the captured mind , mental health , fear and seperation , I don’t want others to go through the horrified feelings as I did ….. I want all of it to end as soon as possible , the only way being even more cautious ….