Being a teenager I am often shoved in with the fact that I’m growing up and need to endeavour my plans on vicinity of the future. I am expected to have a perfect lifestyle by my parents. You know what I mean and mostly every person’s folks would fancy that. But sometimes when you just can not discern the climate of your mind ,it can be hellish stressful.
Personally I have not yet decided what I see myself working on and about in the future. And it scares me to the last strand of hair on my body that how can they ask it so casually. It’s not like I’m sitting in a restaurant with an exquisite menu in my hand and am asked to choose want I wish to eat. No. No. No. It’s probably something that I’d end up doing all my life. Offcourse none can interpret the end but you are supposed to live on ,right? If I’m already perplexed, can say have no dreams than how can I just pick the correct option. Like ok I don’t know the answer of this multiple choice question so …one …two … three…four…hmmm let me choose option 3 because it seems relevant and has one fourth a probability of being accurate anyways.
That’s not even the worst part you know why because once in their whole life an indian child has to be asked if he wants to be a doctor or an engineer. Literally the career options in the minds of Indian people are like set on default mode at doctor and engineer. No one even wants to see the world beyond that, lol! Whilst if you want to take other activities like sports, arts, music, acting and all kinds of stuff as a career than most people are not supported by their families because according to them there is no future in those kind of things, too much competition you see. Oh yeah, and what about like those 50 thousand doctors and 10 lakh engineers that graduate from collages every year and much fewer people get any jobs. Many students themselves are afraid to pursue career paths different than those related to studies because since childhood they are fed that you’ll end up nowhere like that and thus are afraid of failure.
Me and my friend Anshika have faced choosing a career quite challenging. Sometimes I literally feel like I’m useless and letdown everyone. Especially when relatives come home and enquire about what I want to be, me sitting in a corner with a poker face saying I haven’t decided yet while there kids plan to be scientists and lawyers and what not. It’s awesome if they know what they need to focus upon but leave me alone for goodness sake. I’m not like them and I don’t want to be like anyone because I am my own person.
I’m just going on every day on the path of an unknown destination. It makes me anxious it really does. I wrote all of this to take some load off of my mind because people won’t judge me here for being awkward and careless and clumsy and lost. If you read till here then thanks a lot for listening to my nonsense 😊 it means a lot. Love you.