I have been busy dealing with a lot lately, with couple of drafts left to finish , but somehow I just can’t do it .

At the start of lockdown I felt “okay think positive , you have got so much time at home , all’s gonna be alright.” Well it was going great for a while but then my grandpa passed away ( he was not infected with corona) . That was just 5 days before my 16 th birthday .

Well he was not well for almost an year ,but still he wasn’t that bad , he was much better than last summer. The thing that crushed us was ,we all were at our homes , no office or school to hinder us but he lived in other state so we couldn’t even attend his last rites, I couldn’t see him for the last time and that regret is gonna follow me ,my whole life .

It was then that I realised that this pandemic was taking much more than lives . It is taking away those important moments from lives of thousands. In fact after grandpa’s death , the caretaker told that he was pretty fine a week or two ago but his condition deteriorated with the commencement of lockdown . It was like those walks he took in the park in evening , the continuous interactions with neighbours , the hustle and bustle of regular life , the normality of daily life had kept my 87 year old grandpa alive . And suddenly when he was deprived of this normality , he felt agiated and left the world.

This post doesn’t mean that lockdown in not positive or bad , in fact I wrote it again as a reminder , showing the pains of this cruel time . It is affecting all , it is torturing feelings and mind without even infecting . The only way to defeat it as soon as possible is to follow the rules as strictly as possible .

Now that I know what chaos has the pandemic plunged the world into , not only death by infection but the captured mind , mental health , fear and seperation , I don’t want others to go through the horrified feelings as I did ….. I want all of it to end as soon as possible , the only way being even more cautious ….

“As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same”

~Nelson Mandela

How many of you hold back from being your true self because you fear judgment? I also pass by that bridge once in a while. It’s not a fun place to be. People can be cruel, bitter, and down right nasty. Which makes it very difficult to want to come out of your shell

“Our deepest fear is not that we’re inadequate.Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?! You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.”

YOU are an amazing and beautiful human. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. Don’t let social media, opinions of family, friends, ANYONE, hold you back from letting your light shine. They are not you so they can not understand your outlook of life.

Well me and my comrade Anshika occasionally feel isolated because of the fear of judgement from our parents. So I want to mention that, we might not be able to change them now, we can always keep trying but just don’t get anxious if you can’t. We can change the mind of a person who has not seen much in life ,like a child, who has yet to learn so much … that’s easy but a grown up has had their life experiences and they have a different perspective to life which we can not understand because we are not at the stage they are at. Also our and our parents’s minds only match upto about 50% according to psychology. And the rest 50 is what we learn from our surroundings, trust me 50 is not such small a value. Don’t feel isolated if you think they can not understand you or you can not understand them. It’s fine.

People showcase their own insecurities and inferiority complex by poking a finger out at someone and they don’t realise that three are pointing back at them. It’s just wrong to judge people. Everyone has their own story. What you see is incomplete reality. Instead of dooming faults in others, make time to correct your own.

Your value does not decrease based in someone’s inability to see your worth. It’s easy to judge. More difficult to understand. Understanding requires compassion, patience and willingness to believe that good hearts sometimes choose poor methods. Through judging we seperate, through understanding we grow.Be proud of who you are and not ashamed of how someone else sees you.

Our journey as bloggers was a result of a highschool project but then became our inspiration. As 15 year old teens we were just trying to find a platform through which we could share our ideas and opinions with the world , and hoped to find someone to resonate with them . Call it naive but we just want to make a difference , however small it is , even if it’s just a single person we can inspire , a single smile we can bring to a face , it is enough for us for a start . We were overjoyed to track that we got views from not only our friends , our country but from all around the world. And we almost cried from joy to see ceridwensilverhart nominating us for the Sunshine Blogger Award . Read ceridwensilverhart’s blog to uncover the enticing tales behind myth and majestic mythical creatures. Enjoy a daily dose of myth and fantasy .

The Rules

• Thank the person who nominated you and provide a link back to their blog so others can find them.
• Answer the 11 questions asked by the blogger who nominated you.
• Nominate 11 other bloggers and ask them 11 new questions.
• Notify the nominees about it by commenting on one of their blog posts.
• List the rules and display a Sunshine Blogger Award logo on your post and/or your blog site.

Questions from ceridwensilverhart

 1. How do you like your eggs? If you’re allergic or don’t like eggs, what style of egg most repulses you ?

Anshika : So I am a pure vegetarian person , so I don’t eat eggs at all .( I don’t like the smell too though !)

Sakshi : Ok so I’m a vegetarian too but due to health conditions I was imposed to eat boiled eggs once when I was 13 but I could not continue to eat it because I really did not like the stench. Eggs and all kinds of meat are loved all around the world but I just can not affiliate with them because I never showed interest in them since childhood.

2.What is your opinion of squirrels?

I came cross a story while reading the book ‘ The Monkey Theory ‘ and it really made me think and ponder about life. I just wanted to share it with you. The story stresses the value of good emotions, good memories, good karma and good thought processes. It talks about how these are the only things that matter. Everything else is temporary. But the unfortunate truth is that what’s most important is the most ignored too! Now let’s begin …..

In ancient times, it was very common for men to have more than one wife. An old man, who had four wives, lay on his deathbed. Knowing he was going to die soon, he called his fourth wife, whom he loved very much, to his bedside. For many years, he had indulged this wife the most. He had got her the best jewellery, the most expensive clothes and had given her the best of everything. He loved her, she loved him and they were always together.

He called her and asked, I want you to accompany me after I die. Will you come with me?

She replied, ‘What?! What are you saying? I love you very much, but I can’t come with you. I am sorry.

His heart broke. He couldn’t believe her words. He thought to himself. ‘I gave her the best of everything, but she ditched me in the end!

In grief and despair he sent word to his third wife. She was second in his affections and he had done a great deal for her too.

‘I want you to accompany me after I die. Will you come with me?” he asked.

She replied, ‘How can you expect that I can’t come along and in any case, I have decided that after you die, I…I am…going to marry someone else! Sorry!

This shocked him again. He had given her considerable attention, had indulged her and yet here she was, betraying him in his hour of need.

Now, he sent word to his second wife and asked her the same question. He had shared all personal matters with her and she was very close to him. To his dismay, she too gave him a similar reply. She said she could come with him up to the cemetery, but not beyond.

Finally, the man’s last hope was his first wife. He had always misbehaved with her, had never given her any importance, or valued her and hadn’t done anything special for her. He had always taken her for granted. She had always been his last priority. He felt ashamed and guilty to even ask her to accompany him. But he did so anyway.

Guiltily, he asked her, I am almost dying and leaving this world. I don’t want to go alone. Will you accompany me?

She said, ‘Of course, I will come with you, my dear. I will be there with you forever.

Tears welled up in the old man’s eyes. He couldn’t believe how much she cared for him.

He said, ‘ My dear. I have always ignored you. You looked poor and miserable in front of the other three. I never realised that it was only you who loved me truly and selflessly. I wish I had taken more care of you.’

This beautiful analogy of the four wives was explained thus by Lord Buddha:

Every person has four wives/husbands.

• The fourth wife symbolises our body and its cravings. We work on our body and its beauty and do almost everything to keep it beautiful, but it leaves us the moment we die!

• The third wife symbolises our material wealth (money, property, jewellery etc.), that will go to someone else after we die

• The second wife symbolises our relationships that can’t accompany us beyond the grave.

• The first wife symbolises our mind, deeds and actions. Always with us, but remains unnoticed. It is the most important one, but is ignored and something that one often realises only towards the end of one’s life.

Now, the question that struck me was, ‘If the mind is so important, why don’t we spend time with it? Why don’t we nourish and develop it? Most of us find it really difficult to handle the mind. We find it difficult to handle our own emotions. Sometimes, our own emotions make our life miserable. I am sure this happens to all of us. The mind can be our best friend or our worst foe. A lot depends on how we handle it!

A bond as pure as the pearls in the sea is what we boast with our pets ….

You don’t even realise how those innocent beings enter your life and make it sparkle and colourful with the simple element of endless love and empathy. How in the saddest and darkest moments of your life you just look at them and know that they are there , they won’t leave your side. They don’t judge you for being clumy, gawky, dramatic, sensitive, inept or melancholy. There aren’t many people who admire you for being yourself but they, obligate nothing more than you. They are the only beings on earth who’ll love you more than you do to yourself.

Even I was blessed with a beautiful soul , a dog and I can not with a combination of the 26 alphabets depict what he means to me . The naughty nature , little mishaps and out of the box love, fill up my treasure chest with sweet and charming memories.

Always so full of energy , just rumbling all around the house and offers the most inviting and balmy welcome. I love to train him and he loves to learn new tricks and show them off. We snuggle and embrace each other’s presence. I feel safer when he is around me as if he’s my gaurdian angel .

He has alleviated me in so many ways when even I could not help myself , whenever I’m anxious or downcast his furry little self urges me to play with him and I always forget my miseries. He keeps me fit and well . He is one reasons my heart loves to beat for.When my soul was juggling around for answers he illuminated my path and taught me how to just live in the moment. He makes my life worthy. Dogs are our link to paradise. They don’t know evil or jealousy or discontent. To sit with a dog on a hillside on a glorious afternoon is to be back in Eden, where doing nothing was not boring–it was peace.